Lessons in Waiting
Or: how I learned the hard way to not schedule events in August.
This summer has been full of unexpected + exciting developments for CollabCreate, as well as some setbacks. As I reflect on next steps, it occurs to me that the best things to come out of this summer were the ones that I had little to do with initiating. The things that haven't gone as well as I hoped are the things that I pushed too hard to try and make happen.
Recently, I started learning about Human Design. If you haven't heard of it, it's a system for understanding ourselves based on a combination of principles from I Ching, astrology, Kabbalah, the Hindu-Brahmin chakra system, and quantum physics. I know, it's pretty woo, but it's wildly on point for me.
One thing I've learned is that I need to spend more time sitting with ideas + plans before committing to them. There are SO MANY THINGS I want to do, and ideas that I have, and people I want to collaborate with... but when I say YES! to stuff in the moment without pausing first, the results are usually not what I imagined.
My "type" (a Manifesting Generator) is advised to respond to things by waiting, feeling our reaction, and testing it out before jumping in with both feet. Otherwise, we risk wasting valuable energy, potentially having to do a major course-correct or redoing things we thought were done.
I gotta tell ya, this is me to a T. I get so in the moment of feeling the potential energy of something that I jump in and start DOING, figuring it out along the way. Although this works sometimes, it often leads to frustration, wasting time, and frequently questioning WTF I'm doing. Anyone else relate?
So, I'm working on it by relishing the Pause. New idea? New collaboration? New resource to offer? Great. Write it down. Sit with it. Wait for things to start showing up that confirm my feelings about it, or that show me it's not right for now.
Human Design theories aside, I think this is a lesson many of us can use. As creatives + entrepreneurs, we're driven by our passions and trying to do so much at once. Let's start reserving our powers for the things that really click, that are "meant to be" because they call to us long after the thrill of the inspiration is over.
It'll be worth the wait.